It's not okay...
Uh. hi. My names Amy. And uhh. I wish I was a seagull.
I wish I had a convertible orange volkswagon and drive straight until I can't drive straight anymore. To the point that I'm lost and happy about it.
I wish it was mid-Fall to mid-Winter year round.
I wish I had a convertible orange volkswagon and drive straight until I can't drive straight anymore. To the point that I'm lost and happy about it.
I wish it was mid-Fall to mid-Winter year round.
My names:
PanCake :3 Bug Psycho
SunShine
Rage Monsterrr!
Rainbow
APPLESAUCE(: Freak
Scissors CuddleMonkey
BananaBunny
Kat
Kitty Nessey! Maurice ;)
Hers<3
SunShine
Rage Monsterrr!
Rainbow
APPLESAUCE(: Freak
Scissors CuddleMonkey
BananaBunny
Kat
Kitty Nessey! Maurice ;)
Hers<3
I wrote this. So you would understand. I. Love. You.
-I'm sorry this is so long, I couldn't stop writing x)-
When it gets bad.
When I have to remind you it will be okay someday.
I know it's not okay, when I'm crawled into a ball,
Crying myself to sleep every night.
Even though you don't feel like talking, and you don't want to be with me at the time,
I'm alone in my room, in the corner, on the floor, cold and scared.
Crying myself to sleep everynight.
Everynight you leave me, knowing it's not okay.
I'm tired of telling myslef it's okay.
It worked for a while.
But I've stopped believing in my own voice.
I need to hear it from someone new.
I need to hear it from you.
Tell me love.
Are we forever?
Are we going to fall asleep tonight?
Are we going to wake up still happy?
Are you going to tell me you love me?
Are you going to miss me?
Are we ever going to get away from this..
Such a disaster.
It's just a mess.
And all I'm trying to do is clean it all up.
I know you're trying.
I know you care.
But I'm still scared.
I'm still scared that one night it's going to get so bad, that you just can't handle it.
I'm scared that you are going to think that leaving me is whats best for you, us.
Even though you might feel better without me.
I will be dead. I won't even give it a second thought.
If I know that I can't have you, that I can't tell you I love you.
If I ever know that you have stopped loving me.
Just know..
I still love you and I always will.
But if you don't want me, and I can't have you.
there's no reason to live anymore.
You're my only reason, the only reason I wake up every morning.
You're the only reason I stopped drinking.
You're the only reason I don't take this knife and slit my throat.
I stopped caring when I was just a little girl.
I gave up on everyhting I ever cared for, worked for, or ever thought about.
But when I met you, it all came back.
I finally felt alive again.
I looked in the mirror, and I was smiling.
I was smiling...
You were smiling...
Now baby.
Tonight.
I want to fall asleep with a smile on my face.
I want to fall asleep, instead of worrying that I could never hear your voice again.
I could never hear you tell me you love me.
So..
All I need to hear are these simple words.
To get through the day.
To keep me asleep tonight.
I need these words, so I know we are forever.
Tell me please,
You love me
You miss me
It's going to be okay
It's okay
It's going to be okay, right?
When it gets bad.
When I have to remind you it will be okay someday.
I know it's not okay, when I'm crawled into a ball,
Crying myself to sleep every night.
Even though you don't feel like talking, and you don't want to be with me at the time,
I'm alone in my room, in the corner, on the floor, cold and scared.
Crying myself to sleep everynight.
Everynight you leave me, knowing it's not okay.
I'm tired of telling myslef it's okay.
It worked for a while.
But I've stopped believing in my own voice.
I need to hear it from someone new.
I need to hear it from you.
Tell me love.
Are we forever?
Are we going to fall asleep tonight?
Are we going to wake up still happy?
Are you going to tell me you love me?
Are you going to miss me?
Are we ever going to get away from this..
Such a disaster.
It's just a mess.
And all I'm trying to do is clean it all up.
I know you're trying.
I know you care.
But I'm still scared.
I'm still scared that one night it's going to get so bad, that you just can't handle it.
I'm scared that you are going to think that leaving me is whats best for you, us.
Even though you might feel better without me.
I will be dead. I won't even give it a second thought.
If I know that I can't have you, that I can't tell you I love you.
If I ever know that you have stopped loving me.
Just know..
I still love you and I always will.
But if you don't want me, and I can't have you.
there's no reason to live anymore.
You're my only reason, the only reason I wake up every morning.
You're the only reason I stopped drinking.
You're the only reason I don't take this knife and slit my throat.
I stopped caring when I was just a little girl.
I gave up on everyhting I ever cared for, worked for, or ever thought about.
But when I met you, it all came back.
I finally felt alive again.
I looked in the mirror, and I was smiling.
I was smiling...
You were smiling...
Now baby.
Tonight.
I want to fall asleep with a smile on my face.
I want to fall asleep, instead of worrying that I could never hear your voice again.
I could never hear you tell me you love me.
So..
All I need to hear are these simple words.
To get through the day.
To keep me asleep tonight.
I need these words, so I know we are forever.
Tell me please,
You love me
You miss me
It's going to be okay
It's okay
It's going to be okay, right?